Life's Bitter-Sweet Encouragement To Go On

'Though everyday's been an unending struggle
That makes me so tired and weary
And often brings me closer to giving up
But looking back at all the things I've done and how I've been
Although I know they'd never good enough
To the unsatisfied eyes of those nasty spectators
Life's still at its best and fairness sweetly smiling at me.

Counting all the blessings I have
Starting with a loving and understanding family
Whom I've always been treated as they're baby
Friends that always raise a glass with me
A girl who always argues and fights with me (and fights for me, too)
A decent work that pays my bills
Not maybe the best in all the world
But Oh, these GRACES from Him push me to go along.

As the new year starts, and 2012 is about to end
Deep wishes comes out on every (sigh) breath I take
And solemn prayers on every move I make
That a glimpse of a better life would somehow be seen.

Queries to you Lord

If ever I see you face to face Lord
I'd ask you plenty of questions
For these are the issues that bothered me so much
While living here on earth.

I'd ask you why you gave me only one heart that I can't love two souls at the same time?
Why the word infidel was ever known to man?
Why confusion ever existed?
Why religion divides people?
Why believing in you causes division to humankind?
Why they put faith in You to question?
Why misunderstanding triggers hate to every man?
Why hatred causes war?
Why hurt and pain cause tears to the eyes?
Why can't people live in peace and harmony?
And Why money is the the biggest thing in this world?

Pardon my words Lord but indeed my mind is so curious
That I can't leave this world without making a list of queries
That if I ever see you face to face
I may forget them because of the peace to my heart you bring.

One more thing Lord before I put down this pen
Why did you give me a curious mind to ask you these questions?